I would post a picture, but I'm at work, so I don't have my library of pictures here! Oh well. Just wanted to share the great news that Jane is amazing! At the beginning of the year she said that she wanted to run for 7th grade office (they do the elections now), and then after the meeting, she announced she was running for president. I thought this was a little ambitious, but who am I to squash someone's dreams. She was certain and determined. After a grooling couple of weeks where they are not allowed to hand anything out, and can only verbally campaign with a couple of posters, SHE WON! I'm so proud of her and she is SO excited! She is the new 7th grade president at Sunset Jr. High and couldn't be more pleased. It's cause she so dang nice to everyone; there isn't a nicer person in the world. She is just genuinly kind and sweet to everyone. I love this girl so much and she is a great example to me of just being a good kind person!
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
I have the best neighbors. They are a young couple with two young daughters that Sammy falls right in between. They play together all the time. This man, Bert, is the kindest man in the world. Sometimes I find that he has taken my trash out or done other things just because he's a good and kind person. He's always happy and always happy to help. Julie is truly one of those people that you can't help but love immediately. She is darling and kind and good. I just found out that they lost their full term baby yesterday. She was due today. Yesterday was also her birthday. My heart is broken for this sweet young couple. I don't know what happened and won't know for a while, but feel a need to do something for them. I just don't know what to do. Last month when Mike (katy and Jane's dad) passed away, they brought over cookies and a card to express their sympathy. This is SO much bigger than that and I want to do something, but what. I have never lost a child and have no idea what I can do. Hugging her and saying "sorry you lost your baby" doesn't even begin to express how I'm feeling for her and Bert. I don't know if anyone that will read this has gone through something similar or knows someone that has that they can ask. I just want to know what will they need and how can I help, and is there a small gift that would mean something special that I could get for Julie? I need advice. So please ask around and try to help me know how to handle this and how I can help them.
Posted by soapstarmom at 9:26 PM
Friday, July 13, 2012
Well, let's just say that my hair doesn't look like the adorable girl in the picture of my last post a few months ago. It doesn't look like any of the cuts from my pinterest hair board. It's just ugly and I hate it every single day. I actually got it cut about a month or so ago, thinking that it would grow on me/ that I would get used to it. I had about 6 inches cut off at least and bangs added. Not good on either count, not good at all. I cry almost every time I look in the mirror. As my mother has ALWAYS said "hair grows". Yes mother, that is true, but it surely doesn't grow nearly as quickly as I would like it to, like over night. I want the inches back and no bangs. I feel like I look about 5 years older and like a fumpy woman wearing helmet hair. It's bad. Everyone says it isn't, but I know the truth. We all know our own truth about how we really look. It's like when someone tells you you don't actually look fat in those jeans, you know you do. You wouldn't have asked if you didn't already know. The jeans make you look fat and you are trying to believe the horrible lies that everyone is telling you because you really want to believe that you don't look fat or feel fat. But the reality is that my hair is practically hideous. Yes, I can make it look decent and presentable, but I hate it and that's really the bottom line. If I don't feel beautiful with this hair cut, it isn't going to matter one bit what anyone tells me (unless that someone is Thor and he's telling me that he wants to marry me and be with me forever becasue of this hair cut). So, I will grow it back out once again; the vicious cycle continues. I do this all of the time. My hair grows to a decent long length and I get bored with how it looks and cut it, almost this exact same with, but without bangs usually. I tolerate it, but instantly decide that I need to grow it back out. It take a couple of years, and then I do it again! What am I always thinking!? I told the girls that no matter what, DO NOT LET ME CUT MY HAIR OFF AGAIN. I told my sisters and friends, DON"T LET ME DO IT!!!! I look so much better with long hair. Once I reach about 60 though, I'm going for the buzz looked. I think I could actually pull that off as an older woman! Damn; I really hate hair!
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Tuesday, May 22, 2012
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Wednesday, April 25, 2012
I don't love birthdays. I never really have. I try really hard to make it a special day for my kids, but I'm not that mom that does big parties or makes a big deal out of birthdays in general. I just wasn't raised that way, and am really busy and stressed most of the time. However, this year was different for me. Last week my mom asked me if we could celebrate my birthday (April 23rd) on Sunday with our sunday dinner. Sure. However, Emily wanted to come and couldn't so we switched it to monday night. It was forcasted to be amazing weather for April 23rd, so I said that I would like a big BBQ and it was done! Monday I was there by 4:30 and by 5 the party was on. Everyone was there, including some good friends that are practically family. We ate more food than should be legal and anyone knowing our family knows that a party isn't a party without a million different desserts. So in DeLong fashion, we had I think 5 or 6 different desserts. My wonderful Sis-in-law drove down to SLC to get a cheesecake that she knows I love and everyone else did something too. I sat and enjoyed all of it. I loved it so much, that all of these people that I enjoy so much are my family and that they all care enough to come and just hang out and eat. It was amazing and the best day ever. Weird! I loved it. I had the best birthday ever honestly and am so grateful to have such an amazing family. I have a great life. I have so much to be thankful for and am amazed at the life I have been given and all of the blessings that I enjoy. I couldn't ask for much more really.
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Sunday, March 18, 2012
I joined pinterest about 6 months ago, maybe even longer. I fell in love instantly. I use it daily. However, I'm noticing some things popping up in my life that weren't here before Pinterest.
All of a sudden I feel like I dress like crap, look like crap in general, and need to lose 10 pounds and make more money so that I can dress and look like model above. Hmm. That can't be good.
I have come to the realization that my hair DOES not look like the lady (probably 12 year old) in the above picture. Mine looks more like, well, mine, and that bums me out.
I have stopped cooking actually. Haven't wanted to cook in about 6 weeks because I realize that I am just not that good of a cook and have become apathetic about cooking. It goes back to the feeling fat and ugly part, because if I cook all the food that I see on pinterest, I would be even fatter.
The thought of having that outdoor fireplace is depressing since I will never have it. Pinterest has pointed out to me daily that I teach school, make a whopping $39K/year and most everything I see on that site is grossly out of reach, since yes, I'm not wealthy, or a man.
I have found that I now try different make-up techniques. I wear fake eye lashes to church or out on special occasions. I am unsatisfied with my eyes and feel like they look terrible all of the time. If I could only hire a make up artist every day, or have my face photoshoped before I go out the door. Dang it Pinterest, quit making everyone's faces look so dang perfect!
I'm single! Thank you for pointing it out all of you that are constantly planning weddings. I will not have that for a long time probably and that makes me depressed. I'm alone every single night when I crawl into my bed. When my kids make me crazy or I have to deal with crap like electrical problems, there is no husband to help me; I'm alone. Once again, thanks pinterest.
Back to the $39K/year; I'm poor! I will never be able to afford my dream house. Never. Even when the kids leave, still won't. I will still be poor and still be living in my NOW not so adequate house, that was totally adequate before pinterest came into my life. Now I find that I want to buy a new house; move one to bigger and better. Not good thoughts.
I always felt like I was doing a great job with my kids, then I see all of these posts with all of these ideas of what everyone in the world seems to know about raising children and doing all of these fun things. I just hug them and read them bed time stories. I didn't realize I was doing such an inadequate job before pinterest. Dang, one more thing I need to do better on.
The dream of traveling the world has always illuded me. Now it's pointed out to me daily. A dream I just can't afford :(
Back to the wedding/marriage thing. I'm a failure at marriage and realize it. Even iwthout the husband though, I can't even afford the ring above that I would love to have. Quite frankly, I think the ring is more within my reach than the husband. Thanks again for pointing out my loneliness.
Pinterest has an ENDLESS amount of home improvment ideas out there, and I've pinned a ton of them, just to depress me and point out that not only do I NOT have the time, but I don't have the money to do these projects, or the knowledge. Crap, the list of what I'm inadequate at keeps growing.
I thought my 30 minutes work out each morning at 5am was cutting it until I looked at my body and realized that I'm just not doing enough. I mean really, look at these women's bodies on pinterest, and their work out routines aren't so difficult. With the hundreds to choose from, mine was silly and obviously nothing that worked. So now I realize that not only is my workout not effective, I'm not doing enough because I don't look like that and can't do most of the exercises these women do.
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Monday, February 27, 2012
I have the hardest time keeping up with who needs what with the girls. It seems like they are always telling me they "need" something, but yet seems like they have a ton of everything. Getting ready for church is always a stress. I get me and Sammy ready, and the girls get themselves ready, usually with minimal drama I might add. Yesterday, not so much the case. Jane came down looking very beautiful, but barefoot asking if I had any shoes she could wear. Ahh, no; they are all too big and have high heels. Then the drama unfolds. She doesn't have any church shoes (of course), she can't find her sandals (of course), and she doesn't have anything to wear on her feet! (of course). It's now 5 minutes til church starts and I tell the girls I will be out in the car waiting. Katy comes out about 2 minutes later and had forgotten her bands for her braces, so runs back in. I tell her to tell Jane we are leaving. katy comes out and Jane pokes her head out to tell me (more like yell at me) that she doesn't have any shoes to wear!!!! So I say "I'm leaving Jane, church has started now, so put some shoes on." She slams the door (she's a HUGE door slammer) and then it opens with her walking out with her running shoes. I knew full well that she expected me to say "Jane, you can't wear those to church, you go in and change those right now." Instead, I just said "great, thanks Jane, let's go". As we drove to church she said "aren't you going to be embarrassed?" I said "heck no, those shoes aren't on my feet." When we got to church she immediatly went into the bathroom and cried. I was stong and stood in the foyer waiting for her. WE finally went in and she sat very still, totally unwilling to show any signs of happiness. After about 45 mintues she leaned over into my shoulder and said "mom, I thought you wouldn't let me go to church in these shoes, I was just trying to make you mad". I said "I know that Jane, and it's unfortunate that in your desire to hurt me, you are the one that has to live with the consequence for the next 2 hours. I love you." and I squeezed her. She wanted to cry, but knew that she was stuck. I wasn't mad. I had never gotten mad over it, so she realized that she was stuck with it and no amount of crying was going to change her shoes. I think that she won't try that trick again. I will admit though, that I was secretly laughing at how silly she looked throughout the entire meeting.
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Thursday, February 23, 2012
A couple of weeks ago I was babysitting my sister Jen's kids. Her youngest is 7 and Sammy adores him and idolizes him quite frankly. He was SO happy to have him to play with for a week. The first night, when Sammy saw that huge bathtub in Jen's bathroom, he wanted a bath, and asked Will if he wanted to have a bath with him. So the two of them get undressed and hop into the bath with excitment. I'm in the bedroom just tidying up and getting things done (I always sit in the bathroom while Sammy bathes, but didn't want Will to be self-conscious since he's a little older) and I hear this:
Will: What's that mark on your neck?
sidenote: Sammy has a large, dark birthmark at the base of the front side of his neck. It's like a huge totally flat mole. He's used to people asking what it is.
Sammy: it's my birthmark
Will: oh, where did you get it
Pause while Sammy thinks....I'm pretty sure nobody has ever asked him that before.
Sammy: well, Jesus gave it to me.
I smiled to myself. I thought that was the cutest response. It wasn't from me, it wasn't from his dad; it was from Jesus, which makes it a gift rather than something to be embarrassed about.
He says the best things and always just makes me smile. I love that kid more than anything.
Posted by soapstarmom at 9:23 AM
Sunday, January 29, 2012
I am an excellent driver. I have NEVER been in an accident that was my fault (if you don't count when I was 16 and backed into, kind of over, my sisters RX7). This weekend me and 2 friends decided to head up to Jen's house in Midway for a girls weekend. Couldn't wait to get out of town. Picked up my friends and we headed down the road. Jane was also in the car since I had to take her and meet her dad. Anyway, as we drove down the highway, I noticed next us a pick up truck who's tailgate had fallen open and things were about to fall out. I looked and told my friends to look to see if we should maybe flag them down. Well, that was uneccesary, because as I said that, we felt a HUGE thud and watched a street sign go flying into oncoming traffic. I had veered about 12 inches somehow while looking at this pickup, and of course, just happened to do so at just the right second to hit this sign that was dangerously close to traffic. SEriously, I think I veered like 12 inches, if that. I pulled over when I realized what happened, as did the truck that caused the distraction to begin with. The guy got out and I told him that I was distracted by his tailgate being open. He went up tot eh front of the car with us, saw the damage, closed his tailgate and drove away. Jerk! Anyway, as you can see, a small street sign can do a substantial amount of damage. I was DETERMINED to NOT let it ruin my weekend. After all, we were just heading out of town, so we made sure there was no accident from the sign that I had hit, and since the car was drivable, we just went on. I called the insurance co. and emailed the davis county sherriffs dept. to alert them as to what happened (still haven't heard back from them). So, there's my huge, ugly green machine that I didn't think could get much uglier. I was wrong. It got A LOT uglier. I'm so embarrassed to drive that to school tomorrow. I'm going to go early and drive around back hoping that none of my students see.
And the picture below is what Sammy drew in church last week. I asked him to draw a picture of his dad. he actually did a pretty good job depicting him; HUGE belly and ears, tiny legs, and looking like a monkey/ape.
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Friday, January 27, 2012
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Sunday, January 15, 2012
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