Saturday, February 14, 2009

Crowded? Just a little!

So, this last week I moved me and my three very patient kids into my parents house. My sister, her husband, and her 2 year old were currently occupying their home while they are in Guam for the next 20 months. I swallowed my pride, admited that I needed some help, and here I am. Renee and Ryan were very kind to let me invade their space.

It's not ideal for any of us, but I will say that I am very grateful that each time I fall, my family is ALWAYS there to help me pick up the pieces and do what they can to help. There are a couple of things that remain constant in my life. The first one being the gospel. I have always remained very active in the church, and even though I NEVER bear my testimony, I have an incredibly strong testimony that the church is most definetly true. It's a constant in my life that I have always counted on and that will always be there.

The other constant is my family. No matter how stupid I am or have been, they have never judged me, always loved me, and always done what they can to help. They aren't perfect, but they do what they can in thier way. My choices have landed me in some really stupid places, and they are always there to help and never say "I told you so", which I have given them SO many opportunities to say. I love my family and am very grateful for them.

Other than that, I don't have a lot that is constant in my life. I have moved 11 times in the last 8 years and have put my kids through way too much. When I moved to South Weber this time, I told Kate and Jane that if we made this move, when my parents came home, we would find a place in South Weber and stay there. I can't move anymore. I'm tired.

I wish that I had made better choices in my life. I have learned a lot, but would rather not have learned those lessons and just made good choices. If I could teach my kids one thing it would be this: that we have free agency and can make any choice we want. However, the consequences of our choices are set and ours to live with whether we want them or not, sometimes for a very long time. Not only that, the consequences of our choices have such a huge affect on others. Choices are short lived, consequences are NOT!

When all is said and done, I love my children, I love the gospel, I love my family, and it's going to be okay because it has to.